I think it is the human situation to be prone to distraction or to be self-deprecating when things are not what we expect. It is how we are.
It’s an interesting study – our situation. I see that my mind wants things to be a certain way. My body, on the other hand, isn’t interested in what my mind wants, it desires other things like certain foods, sex or to just be lazy. So how can I expect it to listen to the demands of my mind?
I need to be in a relationship with my body. I need it to by my ally. For a long time my body resisted my efforts at meditation, often by producing tensions in the organism. Now it has realized that it gets something out of it, mainly relaxation, so it cooperates.
Our emotional life is similar. My mind says, “I shouldn’t feel this way about something, I should stop.” The emotions don’t know any thing about this. It’s like they are over in another corner speaking an entirely different language.
We have these three separate parts to our vehicle. The body, the mind, and the emotions, that are all working at different speeds and speaking different languages. Meditation is one method in which we can bring these parts together in order to function in a harmonious way.
I try to set a time each evening to sit quietly for five or ten minutes and try to be aware of this body. I don’t need to do anything except observe what is taking place.
I see that I give in to my resistances all too easily.
Before I approach my meditation, I can say to my body that, “if you allow me to do this, I will let you surf the internet for an hour as a reward.” This inner bargaining can be extremely useful.
And above all else, I try to remember to be kind with myself, especially the parts that remain interested in this effort.